🙏 Jai Shri Radhe Maharaj Ji
Maharaj Ji, main bahut gehri duvidha, bhay aur manasik sangharsh mein hoon. Kripya mujhe apne satsang, bhakti marg aur dharmic drishti se sahi margdarshan dijiye.
Maharaj Ji, pichhle 2 saal se meri ek girlfriend hai. Uske saath sharir bhav bhi ho chuka hai. Wo ladki bahut achhi, gunwaan, samajhdaar aur nishchhal mann ki hai. Wo mujhse sach mein prem karti hai.
Maharaj Ji, shuru se mujhe poora vishwas tha ki main apni mummy ko mana loonga. Isi vishwas ke saath maine us ladki ko bhi bharosa diya ki sab theek ho jayega aur humari shaadi ho jayegi. Lekin ab mujhe dar lag raha hai ki kahin main apni mummy ko mana hi na paaya. Is dar ke kaaran main andar se toot raha hoon.
Wo ladki keh rahi hai ki wo intezaar karne ko taiyaar hai, bas main apni mummy ko mana loon. Lekin Maharaj Ji, samay bahut kam hai. Main 25 saal ka hoon, aur wo 29 saal ki hai (lagbhag 4 saal badi). Mujhe is baat ka bhaari bojh mehsoos ho raha hai ki uski shaadi ki umar nikalti ja rahi hai, jabki mere ghar walon ko meri shaadi ki abhi koi jaldi nahi hai.
Main Brahman hoon, wo Baniya hai, aur uski mummy SC caste se hain. Maharaj Ji, maine ye baat abhi tak apne maa-baap ko nahi batayi hai, khaaskar apni mummy ko.
Iska kaaran ye hai ki abhi bina ye baat jaane hi meri mummy itna zyada mana kar rahi hain. Mujhe lagta hai agar ye baat sun li, to wo kabhi bhi is rishte ke liye haan nahi karengi, balki ye baat sunna bhi unhe pasand nahi hoga. Isi darr ke kaaran main ye sach chhupa raha hoon, lekin isse mera mann aur zyada bojhil ho gaya hai.
Maharaj Ji, mere papa phir bhi thode shaant aur samajhne wale hain, lekin meri mummy bilkul mana kar rahi hain aur unhe ye rishta bilkul sahi nahi lag raha. Mujhe samajh nahi aa raha ki main unhe poori sachchai kab aur kaise bataun, ya batana bhi chahiye ya nahi.
Maharaj Ji, mujhe ye bhi lagta hai ki shayad main apna poora prayas bhi nahi kar paa raha hoon, ya phir dar ke kaaran peeche hat raha hoon.
Maharaj Ji, us ladki ka pehle ek past relationship bhi tha, jisse move on karna mere liye kaafi kathin ho raha hai. Isi wajah se mera mann aur adhik complex, ashant aur bojhil ho gaya hai.
Maharaj Ji, mere mann mein ek aur vichar aa raha hai jise lekar main bahut uljhan mein hoon. Kya yeh kehna uchit hoga apne maa-baap se ki:
“Agar aap is baat se khush nahi hain ki main us ladki se shaadi karun, to main kisi aur se bhi shaadi nahi karunga, aur wo ladki bhi kisi aur se shaadi nahi karegi.”
Maharaj Ji, mujhe darr hai ki kahin ye baat zidd, bhavnaatmak dabav ya adharm ke roop mein na li jaaye, jabki mere mann mein ye baat zimmedari aur samvedansheelta se aa rahi hai.
Aaj meri sthiti aisi hai ki:
Ek taraf maa-baap ke sanskar, unka virodh aur unka aashirvaad khone ka bhay
Doosri taraf ek achhi ladki, sharir bhav ke baad meri zimmedari, diya hua vishwas, aur samay ki kami
Maharaj Ji, kripya mujhe spasht aur satya margdarshan dijiye:
Kya mujhe maa-baap ke virodh mein jaakar shaadi karni chahiye ya nahi?
Agar maa nahi maanti, to kya is sambandh ko chhod dena hi dharm ke anukul hoga?
Sharir bhav aur vishwas dene ke baad meri kya dharmic aur manviya zimmedari banti hai us ladki ke prati?
Kya sirf jaat aur umar ke kaaran itna bada jeevan nirnay lena uchit hai?
Maa-baap se upar bataye gaye shabdon mein baat karna sahi marg hoga ya galat?
SC wali baat unhe kab aur kaise batani chahiye, ya kya ye baat batana hi uchit hoga?
Main kaun-sa marg chunu jisse adharm bhi na ho, kisi ka vishwas bhi na toote, aur kisi ka jeevan andhkar mein na jaye?
Maharaj Ji, kripya bahut karuna, satya aur daya ke saath, bina kathorta ke, mujhe margdarshan dijiye — jaise aap apne putra ko samjhate hain.
🙏 Aapka sharanagat